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There is one absolute truth and that is that I am not from this world. My body is a rotting vessel and my heart an instrument that will collapse. 
Only my anima is eternal and eager to be free of the agreements we are chained by and to finally walk free of this human prison. 
While the emotions and memories here are imperative growth for the Spirit, it is nevertheless a burden and it has grown heavy in me. I, who longs to glide in the clouds and dance with the rain as one. I, who desires to embrace the flora and run alongside the wondrous creatures that we know of and those that still remain hidden in worlds humans have yet to exploit. It is a constant battle to accept this reality while wishing to be in and another and daydreaming of what I once was and will never become. There is a distant calling that echoes in my mind and only has me beggin those above to someday soon wind me back into the light of the Universe.

But it wasn't easy to make my decision. It didn't take me one night, or one month, or even a year. But it was long overdue. This is what my soul wants now. It wants to be free and it has taken care of all the once chains that bounded me here. Nothing and no one can hold me back. And I'm ready. Ready for what will come next.

The end is here.

 

My Friend of Pearl

How is it that you can leave me suddenly

When you shine my life with your light?

 

This house is feeling empty and alone

Whtihout your smile of pearls

You hide in bloom

I remember the time

That this passion was born

Thinking too much

 

I dance lonely counting back the days

Waiting for the night to see you again

A visitor that hugs the entire world

'Til dawn

But you leave

 

I will sleep in waiting

In my dreamland bawling

For your light

 

What a precious friend

How can I pay you back?

You, who does not judge?

You, whom all respect

 

Cradled in the mist that you illuminate me with

I have run out of words

When I gaze up to you

I have fallen in love

Hurting too much

 

Give me one more midnight to rejoice

I will keep on waiting in the dark

And nothing in this planet can compare 

To you

Time will pass

Our new phase is blooming

As the Sun in rising

With your light

Written April 6th, 2023

 

 

Flora of the Dead

 

I am shopping for my garden bed

A variety from white to reds

But I am searching for a flower so perfect

It is so that they can still be remembered

 

I have ventured through these endless aisles 

Through the greenhouse and the newly arrived

But it was in that corner so dampened

That I found what now has brought me laughter

 

Petals of cloud

Leaves of vintage guilded gold

Scent of Eden

I did not have to think this twice

 

Come with me

 

This flower is priceless

And now it will be yours to love

One more here in the soil that I tender with joy

Each one is for those that I miss most

Now you can live on

In this garden bed you own

 

There is a happy ending I am planting

I always keep my tired hands so busy

For a million of them is what I needed

The world can see them until my street ends

There is glee

They bloom when you are near

I feed them with light from your new life

 

Petals so bright

Crystalline beyond these seas

All are in awe

I have so much work left to do

 

This one's for you

 

These flowers are priceless

And now this garden thrives for you

Each one carries the name of the graceful now dead

A planet is not vast enough for a billion more

Wondrous flora of the dead

Written April 11th, 2023

 

 

Not Enough

Red Flags

 

What do you feel when you wake up and dream a flashback of that day?

What do you see in the absence? 

Do you live what we’re living too?

And as the years are passing

You are still hiding in the sheets

What is the purpose of breathing in this tragedy?

 

You stood with arms crossed 

He jumped off

 

Walk along this road that we made

No forlorn soul needs to end the same

Red and bright are the flags that hang

Because you were blind and did not help

 

But get close

We all make mistakes

One day you will be forgotten by us

Just close your eyes

And cry with us

 

I want to tell you my story

But you are nowhere close to me

I often wonder if ever you believe in what you dream

There are no more life surprises left for someone who lost their light

But know that you are one of many

He is our eclipse

 

As we watched above

Our arms crossed

 

Walk along the letters and notes

You might find the one that he once wrote

And from tears we built a cascade

Where we bathe because our flesh breathes guilt

 

Come inside

Our candles are lit

You too can put yours now that he’s not here 

Just close your eyes

Suffer with us

 

We wear ruby garments to not ever forget how him we forgot

And this crown of thorns that we made

Is suitable for the one who claims

Loves him most

But where is he now?

Speak to the ashes of whom you have failed

Just close your eyes

Just like he did

Written April 8th, 2023

 

To A Planet Unknown

 

I wish I could go to where it began

So I can tell God to not give me flesh

I often rewind my heart to that place

Where I know I was better than any great man

There is no memory I have of home

But these four walls do not sit right

So why did I end up here again?

A promise to revive again after this wildfire frees me

 

Clouds and stars and the Moon are closer than before

My name means nothing when I think of the grand encounter of the Sun and the Universe

 

I long to be there

 

Take me to the trees with the silver roots of my planet

I have longed to be a celestial being 

Wash my soul off

Into a chasm brighter than morrow 

Where I can fly high

 

Why is it that no one can understand

That my soul is craving an instant change?

The wonders of Nature are dull and withered the once friends that claw off my starlight midnight eyes

 

There is no path left for me here

This once strong globe will shatter 

Apart is my once fragile demeanor of

A chordless spin to send me back where I know I belong 

 

And she pulls me as the tides under her strings

The scarlet sunset no longer holds me down

I crave to be with the ones that put me here

 

To be eternal

 

Take me to the world where my silver roots are still digging

Where I will complete my phase as this being

I need nothing

Without another chance I know I made the right choice

 

End this life

Written April 6th, 2023

 

Final Exam

 

I don't want to think of you

Of the aches you cause me 

The gruesome dripping hues

Terror jerks my head to the side

I cannor stand to look you in the eye

When is this assignment due?

I have always been the first one that turns them in

So I can finally close this book

Our next assignment should be coming soon

For I want to be free

To walk off

To not think

For I want to be me

The truth does hurt

 

Nerves are sterile and ready to be

Paralyzed with fear

When you touch me

Wretched and weak

Fumbling to fall asleep

I never had struggled to dream

The truth does hurt

Scrutinized by eyes with links

 

Testy when you slip by me

With my bucket ready

The vomit to the brink

On the edge of all that you do

I wish I could sink you like the flu

So I study every night

So I can be ready in case we must review

It is always fun to learn more

You taught me my heart is one size for all

 

For you want to be free

To walk off

To not think 

You don't want to be near

The truth does hurt

 

Nerves numb the moment you told me

That there was somebody else

Your monument turned to ash

There is no reason to look back

When I know I'll easily pass

 

The truth does hurt

Devoured by mouths filled with trash

 

For I want to be free

To move on 

To not feel

For I want to be me

 

Glorious Observatory

 

Between the silence spoken

I can hear you

I can feel you

Ephemeral and tremendous

Such exuberance in demeanor

 

The stars are inching closer each night

Eager to be touching your lips just this one time

The adventurous spirit of energy twinkling

By your essence

Perfection in an unseen form

 

We are waiting

In the starlit summit

In a dome made of mirrors reflecting our passion

In colors surreal to our eyes of blue

 

Verbiage only they know of

Turns to visuals

Code illusions

The literal simulation of a spirit which I explode for

The stars are inching closer each night

Dreaming of your lips of passion blessing their birth

The waltzing infussion of love and protection

Are watered in gardens of cosmic desire

 

We are waiting

In the starlit summit

Violet smoke turns to form

It is seen but not touched

In the quiet emotions exploding inside

 

We are waiting

Our time is nearing

Only glimpses of you are remaining in me

Kiss me harder

Like you never knew that you could 

 

I am dying

In our starlit summit

I don't want to be gone

But God who knows it all

Has a plan that I must to through

But hold me close

I am leaving

In your observatory

Your eyes of midnight gleam

The last thing I will see

When I reborn I will be united with you
 

Windchime Garden

 

Last night I dreamt you

Inside a crystal dome

Underneath was the Moon and her flora blooming as you danced so lively

 

I was not there

Could not ever hear you sing

 

Hanging far above

Witness to your voice

The chorus of your rise

The dying wind echoes in the night

 

I have my last thoughts

I cannot write them down

It is hopeless for me to pretend that everything is fine

 

So lively

I want to tell you

But this dome just lives in dreams

 

Hanging by silk strings

In a garden green

The feelings that cling by

Are echoes that linger in the night

 

The days fly by with ardous work

The windchimes sing after your words

Your voice a twinkle

Made of gold

Blessed with love

From the Earth I have dug

Crystalline life

Infused within these tubes that vibrate tonight

 

Singing that one song

Where I saw you waltz

Last night I dreamt you

 

I was not there with you in the dome

 

Already Written

 

Won’t let you divulge of every woe and tattered dream

Handcuffed by the promise that I would work on me

There are liars who lie more

There are those that sleep without dreams

I am waiting for what you will deem will be the right label to tag me

 

The path is already written

And I am walking just fine

The clouds have spelled your name

The roads are vibrant red

The mutilation of my senses grow

Without a speck of your passion

 

I got to live my long life

I sometimes wish that I could turn to stone

So that on my bruised tombstone slate

You could see

The path is already written 

 

Serve my wine in books of fantasy

I write of me

Fickle and distant the poetry of someone dear

This is what I want to say

Anger stems from fights within me

All boils down to patterns in my life

Did you pick the label to tag me?
 

Sea Abode

 

The aqua waves paint skies

In the sand

A home was born from my tears

From a prayer to live

Far from the real

I stand by the door

Waiting for you

Coloring the walls

With the sweet talk of two fools

Lovers that know nothing more

Than to share their lost love

 

Sleeping by the shore

And connecting the dots

Before they both go home

 

I decorate your face wirh seashells and forget my grieving

Laughing carelessly because here time always stands still

You tell me that this place always lived in our hearts

Eternally we can stay here and begin our new life in our sea abode

Recalling that even though the astral bodies did not want to tie us

Love always finds its way back

Love has found us

Wish to be home in our sea abode

 

I stand by you

Coloring the home of two fools

 

REST IN PEACE

 

 

Bring me no flowers

Say no more prayers

Carve on the tombstone

Anything but my name

I lived this life high in the clouds

Nobody got me down

For I am air

I am the light

I am the sweetest sound

 

Restored to be chained back into this world

Where are my wings?

They were stolen before

The choirs ring so eagerly in my ear

It is my time to flee

 

Fear is churning deeper than the core of the Spirit

The lion finally is pouncing

Tear me up

End me now 

I long to break through this cocoon

It is my time to flee

 

This form is killing me

Please send me far away

Where I can see my love

I want to rest in peace

 

But do not cry for me as you close the coffin

Remember who I was because I will reborn

 

There is purpose where I’m going

The protection of the Universe has blessed me

The chills of my triumph stay

I speak through this icy air

 

I lived this life biting the sour ends

My words will stay 

A legacy of pride

I wish no more than to be high above

It is my time to fly

 

Love was stronger than the will to live one more day

My yearning for a new life became the why

It was I who dug up this shallow grave

It is my time to fly

 

So stop grieving for me

Because I still live on

And I am always near

I have to rest in peace

 

I am the eternal sea that you love to breathe in

I am the stars you gaze when your heart longs to rest

Now I am heading home

With you I rest in peace

Written April 11th, 2023